Pondering my future...

So as you may be able to tell from my posts here, I often feel discontent, somewhat lost and searching to find myself and my passion and purpose. Yes, stumbling upon raw foods has been a wonderful tidbit of knowlegde to have up my sleeve. So, I have a stable job that is not very high pressure or too demanding but I don't love going to work everyday or feel passionate about what I do. I think part of my feeling depressed is that I don't feel very full of life, vitality or passion. So, what have I been thinking about doing lately? Well, there is a place in Hawaii that is somewhat like an ecovillage. They have a large organic fruit and veggie farm and they also offer a lot to the community. They offer cirucs classes, yoga, theatre, and dance classes to adults and underprivileged children. they have an internship program where you can go there with a minimum of a one month commitment and work on their organic farm 3 hours a day, a total of 15 hours per week and you can stay for the entire month for only $100. So, lately this has been sounding like a pretty good place for me to find myself. Huh? So, would it be completely irrational for me to quit my job or to see if they would let me take a month off to go to hawaii and continue this searching process of finding myself. It sure would be a nice place to be a raw foodie, huh? Oh, did I mention that you can eat as much of what they grow as you want for free? So, my dilemna, my desire to stick with what is safe and familiar financially verses what is truly living. I feel that this place in hawaii would be a good place for me to explore who I am, I love yoga, acting and the creative arts. I love warm weather and juicy tropical fruit. Mostly I want to remember what it feels like to be happy. Anyways, I may change my mind tomorrow but right now it is something I am thinking about doing.