Friday...

I am excited about the raw food party I am going to tomorrow! Raw pizza, birthday cake and ice cream, sounds great to me. Again, I will be taking pictures. I have been eating all raw the past two days. Smoothies for breakfast, green smoothies for snacks, salad w/ guacamole, vegetable juices and random fruit that appeals to me (this is what I have been eating). Today I brought a salad w/ mushrooms and guacamole for my lunch and I brought a giant bag of cherries. Tonight I am going out on a date to a mexican restaurant and am going to try and just get a salad w/ some avocado and if they make fresh salsa maybe some of that as well. I am so glad that I am starting to spend more time w/ raw foodies and that we get to sample each others creations :).
On another note (aka, changing the subject), I saw my counselor yesterday. I see her about one to two times per month. There are a lot of things I really like about her. I feel that she is very insync with me on a lot of things. However, I feel that my old counselor that I had while I was in graduate school was better ( I can't go to her anymore because I saw her for free as a student and now I have graduated). You see, I think a lot of my issues stem back to losing my mother. I feel that I detached from my feelings and myself in a lot of ways and now I struggle with connecting back to my past, who I am and what I feel. Anyways, my last counselor would usually spend at least 20 to 30 minutes a session talking with me about my past and my mother and how I felt. I usually cried a lot but left the session feeling more connected to myself in a way. My counselor now focuses more on the present, which I like but I feel that we should spend half the session focusing on the present and the other half talkling about my past, since I do feel disconnected from that part of myself. It is hard for me to tell her how I am feeling because I don't want her to think I am critiquing her but I feel that this is more of what I need for healing. It has just been hard for me to find a counselor that is as good as my first one :( . I am thinking about e-mailing my old counselor that was so good and maybe asking her for some advice on what I should do.