Day 5 of my 7 day water fast...

So, this is the fifth day now. I have only told a few of my friends, some think I am insane and others are supportive of me doing this. Last night I went out with a friend who went by taco bell and I was seriously craving taco bell of all things. I haven't even wanted to go there in FOREVER! I am more tired than usual but still have been able to do things, not bed ridden by any means. Last night I went to a womens basketball game with some friends and then went to watch some improv at a local theatre. So far I don't feel any clear direction about my life though, which was one big reason I was doing this. Sadly I feel just as confused as usual. It sucks. I am also currently house sitting and the woman I am house sitting for has a beautiful organic garden that is filled with ready to eat tomatos, cucumbers and blueberries. So, when this fast is over I am definitely hitting up the garden! Can't wait!
As far as my confusion goes... here is my take on it. When I went to Hawaii I really felt so much happier and I think it was because I was surrounded by a wonderful loving and supportive community who I spent so much time with. I also was surrounded by so much creativity that I got to be a part of (acting, dancing, yoga, circus arts). Here in Atlatna I feel more isolated and alone. People are so busy and don't have the time for you that they did in Hawaii. I don't know how to find what I had in Hawaii here in Atlanta. I have been doing a lot of creative things like acting classes and dance classes. I don't feel community in my job. I am a research scientist and I feel that most of the people who work there are kind of cold. I also don't get to use much creativity and don't feel very challenged with what I do. I don't wake up excited to get started with my day. Just curious if any of you like your jobs and what it is that you do.
I also feel like I need to do things that build my confidence. I am thinking about taking an outward bound course (they help you to develop your leadership skills as well as group dynamics and communication skills) would be good for me. I feel like there are a lot of things I could do that would make me happier but I am not sure how I would support myself doing them. I am afraid to leave the security of my job. So, I am not sure but I am thinking about going back to Hawaii for maybe a couple of months (don't want to live there). Okay, well that is what is going on with me for now.